Nobody understand nothing I do for nobody! They all act like they understand but they don’t! It’s times when I want to kill myself! Several nights its been like that! Every time I come home to b.s and not being wanted because I’m not pretty enough or cool enough. Nigga i bet if I died tonight nobody would care! Nobody would even notice! Don’t give me a sob story about how you almost killed yourself because this knife I sleep with every night is real! Yes I sleep with a knife! I just want to be loved! To know that I’m really wanted and not being tricked or used! I just want everything perfect because niggas look at me thinking everything is okey docket but its not! A nigga is during inside because I have nobody to help me up when I fall but everyone is on my back trying to get to the top. No nigga. It’s not Finna go down.